Oh God u got me wrong! I've never wanted u to think those things! I't true that it's quite difficult to express our thinking in english, almost for me but I'll try to explain better what I intended to say.
I'll make an example: sometimes I talk in english with foreign people, for example, whan I go out for holidays, or in other international forums where englidh is the only language possible. But if I'm talking in english and there's also some italian people to talk with, I feel a little embarassed and I really CAN'T talk anymore, as I didn't feel at ease, and I really don't know why! Another one, this year I've been to Tenerife - Spain and I could talk both in spanish (I'm trying to learn it) and english but when I went to the reception I had to stay alone 'cause when my friends were with me, I forgot everything and words didn't come out, also if they sais I speak well and they were well impressed by me!
Now, I really hope to have meade me understood 'cause I've never thought even to think what u said, believe me and if I offended u, I ask your pardon.