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Why even the thought, that I cannot even attend the party, itself makes me cry?

Why the thought itself, that I cannot even attend the party, makes me cry?

Please if the above is grammatically right?
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Only this:

Why does the thought itself, that I cannot even attend the party, make me cry?
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Thanks, but I did not get this.

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