once again watching X-Files I've stumbled upon a sentence which I have difficulties with:

'But one as deformed and horrible as myself would not deny herself to me.'

(Full dialog of the episode '[url="http://www.bluishorange.com/xfiles/?x=mutato "]The Postmodern Prometheus[/url]', look near the end, when The Great Mutato explains himself. BTW, from my Google search for this dialog I now realize, that the original of this text is from Mary Shelley's Frankenstein '[url="http://www.monologuearchive.com/s/shelley_mary_001.html "]The Creature's Monologue[/url]'.)

My questions are:

1. What exactly does he not deny to himself? A loving companion? His desires? Himself, as a human being?

2. If his desires: Why 'herself' and not 'itself'?

3. If himself: Why 'herself' and not 'himself'?

4. I also have problems with the 'myself' and 'me' in this sentence. Shouldn't they either be both 'me' or 'myself'? Ok, it's probably better style not to repeat them.

Thanks for any well-founded explanation in advance. And BTW this is one of my favorite X Files episode, and even if you're not already a fan of the series, go and watch it, it is the sixth episode of the fifth season in the original ordering of episodes (it is the 5th episode of season 5 in Germany). You'll enjoy it.

But one as deformed and horrible as myself would not deny herself to me.

But a (female) person who is like me (that is, deformed and horrible) -- that (female) person would not refuse my (sexual) advances.

[She would consent to be my bride because her deformities would be similar to mine.]

(for a woman) to deny herself to a man = for her to refuse sexual relations with him

(very euphemistic expression)

The grammar textbooks advise "horrible as I" in that sentence, by the way -- as horrible as I am horrible.


so it completely eluded me, that he was referring with 'one' to his hypothetical bride-to-be. This makes it so clear now afterwards.