Hello everyone. I am reading a novel, and I came across this expression. Could you please let me know its meaning?

Pitiful because I needed this fantasy to make coming home easier. Pitiful because the person I wished might appear in my pajama shirt and no bottoms was the very person who had just completely brushed me off. Pitiful because she had seen right through all my little shenanigans, my deferrals, demurrals, my struggle to fill each silence when silence became unbearable, because during those moments of silence I felt like a poker player whose bluff is about to be called but who must keep raising the stakes to keep covering up his bluffs, until he forgets whether he is bluffing or what he is really bluffing about and ultimately knows he must and is expected, sooner or later, to fold. Pitiful because, even in tonight’s voice mails, I had let her ride me through an entire spectrum of posts, from feigned mirth, to hurt avowal, to dignified defeat, and when I could have sworn I had the matter still in hand, she’d finally turned on me, light and swift, venom and scorn.

- André Aciman, Eight White Nights, Seventh Night

This is a novel published in the United States of America in 2010. This novel is narrated by the nameless male protagonist who meets Clara at a Christmas party in Manhattan. The protagonist, after having left his phone turned off all day long only to find Clara's voice message saying that he was just pitiful, is now thinking about the word "pitiful".

In this part, I wonder what the underlined expression means.

Would "posts" here mean "letters", perhaps...? But I am just throwing a wild guess, because I cannot begin to grasp the meaning. o_O

And I also wonder what "ride me through" might mean here.

Thank you very much for your help.


A post is an email or message. She sent him a whole barrage of messages.

Curious ReaderAnd I also wonder what "ride me through" might mean here.

The content of these posts taunted. provoked and teased him in different ways. It gave all his emotions a ride through a range of feelings.

See the phrase "to take someone for a ride"


Curious ReaderIn this part, I wonder what the underlined expression means.

What I am typing here is a post. Your question is a post. We have both posted on this forum. The non-native writer seems to think that a voice mail is a post, but I don't think so.

I don't think it parses "ride me through" but "ride me" and "through an entire spectrum". God only knows what he thought he was saying. This guy don't do English good, and to boot, his self-centered, stalking attitude gives me the creeps.

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Thank you very much for the explanation and the link!

So "post" here means the voice messages that she left in the protagonist's phone. Indeed, it seems unusual to me too that "post" should mean "message" here, rather than the posts on the Internet forums.

And it is divided as "let her/ ride me/ through an entire spectrum of posts".

Also "ride" (verb) would here mean "tease" someone, as the following meaning in the OED:

c. transitive. colloquial (originally U.S.). Of a person: to irritate or annoy (someone); to provoke, tease, criticize.

And "entire spectrum of posts" would mean that she left many messages, and the entire rangeof the tones of the messages (posts) ranged from the positive tone to the negative one, I guess. (I am just trying to make sense of the word "spectrum"... Emotion: big smile)

I truly appreciate your help. Emotion: smile